Daily Bread

John 6

³² Jesus said to them, “Very truly I tell you, it is not Moses who has given you the bread from heaven, but it is my Father who gives you the true bread from heaven. ³³ For the bread of God is the bread that comes down from heaven and gives life to the world.”
³⁴ “Sir,” they said, “always give us this bread.”

There was a season in college where I would forget to eat. It wasn't a ploy to lose weight. I just didn't find comfort in food nor did I have much of an appetite. My meals would me small if I had one. I will admit that I liked how my waist line shrunk. Even though my unhealthy eating habit wasn't about weight, truthfully, I liked the attention I received from how small I had gotten.

Over the next few months or so I started to notice other things change. I started loosing some hair and getting frequent headaches and colds. Towards the end of this unhealthy lifestyle I even caught pneumonia and was put in the hospital for a week. My season of sickness effected my school work and I had to withdraw from school for a semester.

All though my outward appearance was acceptable by the world's standards, my inside was spiraling down and wrecking havoc on my life. Choosing or forgetting to do the things that made a healthy body created a scary situation .

This morning I thought about that season in my life in relation to receiving daily bread. The necessity of food for our body was used in relating our need to be connected with God through Christ. Still, I find myself struggling, even on an intentional mission field, to take in my daily bread- to consume the work/word of the Lord in dependence. Sometimes it is a choice of doing something else instead of starting my morning off in prayer and scripture. Other times I forget my need of Him and feel I can handle it on my own. I think I can handle it on my own terms. 

This past week, I woke up feeling like I was starving for Him. I wanted to drink  in all of His goodness and grace. Depending on myself to get through the day only led to disappointment and want. He has been the only think that satisfies me. So, I find my self asking above all "Lord, give me my daily bread". 

³⁵ Then Jesus declared, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never go hungry, and whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. ³⁶ But as I told you, you have seen me and still you do not believe. ³⁷ All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.